Author: Saintvictoria

feeling alive today and playful, like there is a light.

had a good and bad weekend, terrible as dad is very ill. good as love of my life helped out and held me. feel more calm today though, hopefully entering a new phase…

my dad might have cancer, most likely, now what? i love him he is my dad. i want things to be alright. don’t know what to do or who to turn to to cry on. so scared some more. life is falling to pieces.

everywomen’s nightmare, i think i have a lump in my breast

i think i am making myself sick from sheer unhappiness. i did this before and got an ulcer, and i used to get sick as a child when worried or scared. i cannot eat and i know i should, i realise that, but the thought of food makes me feel nauseous. being with the person…

am i enough? i am ok looking, i am alright to hang out with but, am i enough? so worried so scared so upset. no – one is listening so who cares?

well, i feel a little more loved but, how long is it going to last? till that person is bored at me or angry? am i wasting my time or am i doing the right thing?

LOVE’S SECRET by: William Blake (1757-1827) Never seek to tell thy love, Love that never told can be; For the gentle wind doth move Silently, invisibly. I told my love, I told my love, I told her all my heart, Trembling, cold, in ghastly fears. Ah! she did depart! Soon after she was gone from…

got some really scary news today… don’t know what to do, shall i go forward and keep trying or shall i just stop. that is the real question to me. i am destroying myself and ruining friendships, i feel bad but, so scared.

betwixt and between, but better.

just waiting