Saturday night I went to a party with teka, now if you know me at all, you would know I am extremely leery of house parties, and now two in two weeks! Well, it was fun, it was a smallish gathering and I knew most the people and I did not feel awkward, so a success!
I heard the new White Stripes and finally placed my Metropolis order today. The White Stripes is great, different, but great. And my order is huge, I am out of so many CDs at the store. But, an old employee is back at the Facts – Heather – and it is great! She is only working for a month or so, but, she always makes the days go quicker, and gets stuff done. So inspiring.
I talked to my Aunt tonight, and told her what is up in my life – the abbreviated and funny version. And she says to me “you are strong and I know you will make it”. And I know inside me she is right, I will get a new place, I will go back to school, I will find my creativity again, but I want it all now! I hate working up to things, I am a trifle impatient! But, I try. I push myself to write, to read and to learn, and grow and listen. The hardest thing I find, is defining my goals and prioritizing them. I need to sell my off my stuff/baggage, I need to work on my house, I need to get into good habits about getting stuff done, and each day is one small thing. Not everything happens at once. I tell myself this all the time but, aaargh! I don’t think I listen.