When I hug some people I feel their being flutter within my arms and run up and down me. People wonder why I am not touchy. This came up last night at Spoon . I knew it would be a “peep laden show” i.e lots of people I know from the store and who recognize me. They all want to touch though, I dress in such a way that I look stand offish – full “goff garb” at an indie rock show. I am comfortable on my own. I like to talk to people and say hi, but I do not feel I need to latch on to them and spend the night looking for some one to be with. I am also here to hear and see the band. But, people seem to feel weird about me standing a watching and want to hug and put their arms around me. Yuk! I don’t want to get that close to them and feel their stress and insecurity, it creeps me out.
When I was little I hated to be touched to, as a baby my mom said when people touched or tried to pick me up I would go stiff and scream. I hug some of my friends and people I care about. It is a choice who I touch. I used to think I could see peoples auras, but now I realise that I feel them. And feeling people who I don’t know or feel anything for his uncomfortable. I rarely hug my sister or even touch her, we are close, we share a lot, but we do not touch, she understands that it is something I do not do.
I did enjoy Spoon though. They were great! The new album took a while for me to get into , though I loved the last, but live they pulled it off. And wow Britt Daniels is gorgeous.
I liked the Clientele as well, though the audience was not ready for them or very appreciative. They reminded me of The Blue Airplanes especially the way he sung. But, the crowd wanted to talk and murmur the whole show. I think it is the baseball wearing frat boys who have to go to a show as there girlfriends insist, and then stand around comparing thrift store finds…